1/1/2010, Happy New Year !!!!!!!!!

When I was in year 2000, I wondered how would our world and my life look like in 2010. Now I am glad that I am still alive and able to cross over from 2009 to 2010 and celebrate it. It is unbelievable that 10 years was just gone like this. What have I done in 2009? Nothing surprised me. It was just as normal, everything was going well. I hope that 2010 will be smooth for me as well.

New year, a new refresh start. I should make some wishes for this new exciting year ahead. Here are my wishes :

1. My family, friends and me would stay in good health.
2. My CAP will go up to 4.5 and above.
3. I can start a relationship.

Happy New to everyone that sees my post!! Have fun and have a good year ahead!! :-)

How would 2020 looks like? I am wondering...

I got my 1st A (5.0) in NUS!!

Result was released today. Due to the sucky new system, I only managed to view my result an hour after the official release time. The result looks quite ok. My 1st A for a hardest module I have ever taken since I enrolled. The lousiest grade for this semester is that SDE module, B-. I seriously feel that I can't take these kind of writing modules anymore, they won't help me in pulling up my CAP. CAP I got so far is 4.03. My CAP is quite steady since the 1st semester. Hope it can maintain until I graduate as what I am aiming is only second upper.
Anyway, a semester with 6 modules, 24MCs has over, Yeahhh. I am satisfied with this result.

请问21岁的你交过几个女朋友？ errr....没有。

最近重遇见了中学时期曾对她有一些爱慕的女生。见到她的照片，变美了，成熟了不少。

不过当得知她现在已有了男朋友不知为何我突然有股酸酸的感觉。

虽然知道那是应该的，毕竟离中学时期也已经有四年的时间了。

当时的我没胆量和她说我喜欢她，现在的我只能羡慕她和她男友甜蜜的一切。

这种事情在我身上不止发生过一次，每次到了最后才后悔当初为何没有那份勇气与冲动。

我在面对这类事情时真的非常被动，犹豫不决。

我怕说出口后会当不成朋友，不说出口我又怕我以后会后悔。

也许这样我才一直没女朋友吧！

有女朋友真好，有个人关心，多个人照顾自己。

When I am too free

Sitting in the living room, in front of my computer, what do I do?

I keep looking at who is online on the msn. Why isn't she online yet? where is she recently?
Logging in and out facebook to check for other people's updates and play for those games in facebook(although I know they are childish).
I started to watch the replay of the tv programes although I have watched them before.

Omg, 24 hours a day now to me is too long. Something to fill up my holiday please!!

Holidays

Haven't been writing anything here since my exams started because no time to write. 6 modules, I have been studying for every second to catch up. But now it is over, whatever the results would be, I don't care, at least for now. I will just leave it to 22december. After exams I feel like my life is nothing but just studying. I got nothing to do after the exams!! What is wrong with this? I think I should find more entertainments for myself during this 1 month holiday.

This ends my 3rd semester in NUS. Time to start packing and head back to my home to slack and meet my friends.

BUZY mode

All began with the hydraulics lab report. Looking back what I have done since 20 oct, I was amazed that I did a lot of things. During this 3 weeks, I have done 2 lab reports, 2 essays each 2000++ words, 3 quizzes, 6 assignments, and one oral defense. I was like whaoooo!! 3 weeks!!Almost all the things I have to do in this semester fall in the last few weeks of this semester. This really made me mad. These things were due one by one within this 3 weeks period, and they kept me working for so many nights. But now it is over. Today is the end point of these unstoppable continuous assignments for me in this semester. I think now I deserve a short break before I start my engine again, not for assignments but for my first paper in next friday and the rest of the papers.

I won't joke

I wasn't annoyed. I knew I was not serious sometimes, but I was just being too relax that I didn't even think of what I said. I felt that playing volleyball was an enjoyable thing, that's why I joked around and try to make the atmosphere more relaxing. I didn't know that this will make others felt uneasy. I will not joke next time. I joke doesn't mean I am not serious, my standard is just there. I can't be as good as you all, but I will try to fight for the ball next time.

A lot a lot of works to do!!

I dunno why suddenly I have so many things to do and all fall within one week. I need to breathe and sleep and play, I don't want to just stay inside my room and do all the assignments every single second. It has been two weeks since I went back home last time and it seems that this coming weekend I will have to stay in RH again. Sad. This week please pass through faster so that I can take a breath. Exams are coming, and I have so many things to catch up. Taking 6 modules in one semester is not easy, I won't try this anymore.

should I say?

I wanted to try again, but impact from last experience still stays inside my mind. Last experience really caused me to lose my confidence. Now, even though there is a chance in front of me but I don't dare to give it a try. I really have to take my steps carefully because I don't like that kind of feeling appears again when I am failed. I need some time to observe.

second try, a nice experience

Finally, I finished one of the things that 21 years old people should do, CLUBBING !! haha.. With the unhappy experience last time, we reminded each other to bring matrix card before leaving hall and we all got in.

Never really clubbed before so everything was new to me. The loud music, all kinds of alcohol drinks and people there. Never imagine I can actually dance in the dance floor which I only saw in TV. Everything was fun and exited especially after all of us had got high enough to dance crazily due the effect of alcohol.

cheers!!

My birthday present? thx for sabo-ing me, haha..

What is the effect of clubbing?
1. lost my voice because I needed to talk and sing very loudly inside the club
2. Half deaf because the music inside was crazily loud
3. slept the whole day the next day because I was really exhausted after 3 hours of shouting and dancing.

21岁咯！！

生日对我来说越来越没意义了，可能过得没感觉了吧或者是没什么特别。有人说21岁生日应该让自己有个非常难忘的生日，不过我觉得我的还蛮枯燥乏味的。不晓得以后回想起来会不会觉得后悔没有曾经疯狂过。

一个人在房间里看着朋友在facebook上献上的祝福虽然很感谢他们的细心但却觉得没什么感觉。比起面对面的祝福，我想我还是比较喜欢后者。记得去年这个时候我的房门被人大力的敲打，门打开时是生日蛋糕与生日歌的到来，相比起今年使我感觉到特别寂寞。景物依旧在但人事已全非。我想还是比较喜欢去年的生日。

I have gained my weight !! Yes..

There was a weighting machine during my lab today where I caught the chance to take my weight. The digits were suprising. It was 55 kg something. I am heavier now, haha. From 50 ++ kg to now 55 ++kg. I didn't realise that I have gained 5 kg since I last weighted my weight although that was damn long ago. It is an ideal weight for me. I should maintain it.

Clubbing?? Not really

My first clubbing experience is not a good one. I went to st. James last night intended to experience what is actually clubbing but ended up like a tour to st. James.

Reason:
One of my friend can't enter the club even though we had used up all possible means to let him sneaked in. The guy there said his picture on his matric card was scratched and therefore can't let him go in. *lame*.

In the end, we were forced to go back hall after I had gone inside and toured one round. Lousy experience really. Hope there is a chance for me to really drink there.

sem BREAK

Here is the sem break I have been hoping for. 9days. How should I spend it? I dunno, but I have a lot of assignments and readings need to be done within this week. Can I afford to spend one or two days to really rest without doing and thinking anything? I hope so. The amount of things to be done pulls me back from starting them. Hopefully I can finish them according to my schedule.

New room

Finally, the renovation has finished. Just to show you some pictures taken in my new room in RH. Almost all the furniture are new, smell of wood everywhere inside my room. But overall not bad especially the toilet, it improved a lot.

Geylang is not gay

I went to Geylang last Friday and ya, I went to explore that area. You know what I mean. It is a good experience because I have never seen a small area with such a high concentration of prostitute before. Some were pretty(Chinese, my preference), some were even ah gua, I saw one, lol. It was a good experience where my friends and I actually went to discover how those underground stuff works. The price, how they get their customers and all that. I felt a bit scared and shy when I walked down the street full of prostitutes. You know first time mah!! But to them, they are easy to be like items in supermarket letting people to choose. Their economy status might have forced them to do so.
Felt like to try once when I saw all these pretty babes around me, but I m scared of AIDS..lolx..

fell down because of slippery floor

I can't remember when I fell down last time. To me an adult shouldn't fall down so easily excluding all those old people lah. Dunno why I was damn 'suey' when I was at home happily enjoying my weekend.
I drove to buy my lunch. On my way back to take my car, I slipped. The cement floor was so slippery partly due to a rain before I reached there. Blood all over my right leg. I didn't realise until I got into my car. Oh my god, it was so painful.

Cannot adapt

This is the second day after the school started, I have to say I still can't adapt the pace of life here. I really feel to go home especially when I couldn't get a good sleep for the past two nights. The bed is so hard compared to mine at home, the weather was damn warm although it was at night. Maybe I need more time to find back the life I had here during last semester. ooo, I miss my home, my holidays...

school starting

less than 24 hours from now I will be in NUS and burying myself in all the books and lecture notes again. For now, I would rather work than study. 3 months holiday, ' phiew..... ' , OVER!!

!@#$%^&* LOUSY SERVICE IN HOSPITAL SULTANAH AMINAH

!@#$%^&*, what a lousy service I received today. Is it because of the amount of money we pay that gives you an excuse for the lousy service provided? I queued for 2 hours just to pay that RM 1. That is still 'OKAY'. But when I finally sat down and waited my number to be called, the nurse put out the notice 'LUNCH break'. What the fuck, I even hadn't eaten my lunch. 'OKAY' , I kept waiting, and FINALLY I was able to SEE the doctor. Anyway it was not me who was sick, it was my mum, her hand pain. Ok, continue, we wasted 3 hours to see this doctor and she only simply took a look on my mum's hand and dunno wrote what, then asked us leave the room and told us to come again tomorrow. I was like !@#$%^&*, one whole day spent just to see this freaking small lousy shrimp doctor. Even though I knew the service in government hospital is like this, but I promise I won't come to government hospital anymore if there is a choice.

About to sick

You know when you are about to sick you will know. I am feeling dizzy now. I feel like want to vomit after eating a lousy dinner with my lousy body condition initially. I tried to find out the reason for me to get sick and I got it.
I went to watch movie (The proposal, very funny, I would recommend people to watch). The switch in temperature inside and outside the theatre is the culprit. It was so cold inside the theatre and stuffy plus humid outside. I think this made me ill. I haven't sick for quite a long time already, please don't fall sick.

sushi king treat

some pictures taken the last day I worked in BESTA. We were in sushi king. We spent around RM 1600 in this shop. Poor boss andrew, he paid for all the expenses because this was his treat :)

These are my lovely colleagues, we spent around 2 months together.

Bye BESTA

Yesterday was the last day to go to work and today is the first day since the beginning of holiday which I can sleep without the disturbance of alarm clock. I am totally free now when I do not need to go to work. I can imagine how would I be if I didn't go for interview last time, useless person I would be I think, doing nothing everyday and keep sleeping. I am glad I went to work. Besides the pays I earned, I knew a lot of friends as well. After all, the sushi king treat (again) was a good ending for me in BESTA.

I must be mature

I think my mindset is not mature enough. I am going to be a 21 years old MAN soon, gonna be more mature in thinking, talking, and acting.

I will resign soon.

I submitted my resignation letter today which means I will leave my working place soon and return to school. 9 more working days to be exact then I will quit my job and start packing to leave my sweetest home. Time passes very fast when I have things to do. It is good to have a place to spend my holidays instead of staying at home doing nothing. Working here is a good memory for me. It is like a shell for me to learn something new and recharge before going back to school and start fighting again. This two months make me feel like I am truly a office man. I have a rough picture now how my work will look like after graduating.

14 July 2009

Time!!! please runs faster so that I can quit working faster but please freezes after 1st August because I don't wish to go back to school..

One month to go

people are leaving or have left in the office. I still have one month to go. Less laughter in office makes 8 hours like forever. Hope to see new people to stop me from yawning in the office :)

I am glad I taught in sjk(c) tampoi before

Today I went back to the school I taught last time, bringing the idea that no more student can recognise me anymore. To my surprise, some can still even call out my name..黄伟聪老师..haha..I am very glad that they can remember me although I have left the school for one year.

I met one student from a class which they called it "rubbish class" in school when I was about to leave.To me they are the one who need to be taken care of rather than all those have already in good classes. I am gratified to see this student got some improvements in his studies compared to those days I was still teaching him. I encouraged him to study hard and from his eyes I know he has listened in. I really hope he can concentrate on his studies and prove himself because I know he really eager to learn just that he learn a bit slower.

18 june 2009

yummy, just finished eating durians, love it, like it, miss it but finally I tasted it just now. My fingers and mouth are full the the durian smells now. It stinks but I like it, hehe..

Getting well in my works, some rewards announced from my boss today to appreciate our 'hardworks' over the past few weeks. It is gonna be a sushi king treat for tomorrow lunch, yeppy!!! I am looking forward to the treat tomorrow, I am going to eat a lot a lot of sushies..

9 june 2009

I have been so busy recently that I don't have time or rather lazy to write something on my blog. Working takes up most of my time in a day, it leaves me no time except to sleep. Time passes really fast when you have a lot of things to do, without knowing it, I have been working more than 1 week. I think just a blink of eyes, I have to go back to school again already. But I think this will be good for rather staying at home and do nothing.

I knew a lot of new friends in the office, some surprisingly are my friends' friend. Get along with these new friends quit well. I am enjoying working here although the pay is considered low compared to singapore but it is quite reasonable in malaysia.

Still putting in effort to finish up the last book of harry potter, hopefully is the end of this month. (ya, it is very slow, but I don't have time mah!!)

sem 2 RESULT was RELEASED

I checked my sem 2 result in my office this morning when I eventually couldn't stop my desire to know my result. Ok, It was ok overall. But the weird thing is what I expected would be lousy turned out to be quite good and the other way round. I really don't know how NUS grades us. But I know I will not be able to change my major anymore with my result now. Since god wants me to stay in environmental engineering, I will just follow. I won't announce my CAP here because I think it is far too private. I am satisfied with my result as I have cs 1101 c and eg 1109.

I feel tired since I started to work. I have to get use to my life now, it is no longer sleeping as priority, I have to adjust back to normal sleeping duration per day ( 8 hours not 12 hours ) in order not to doze off in office.

got my job, spend my holiday

around 5.30pm today, I received a call which number is not familiar to me. It was calling from the company i went for interview last week. I was hired and will start working on thursday..haha..tell you what, I only went for this interview and I got my job. Should I say I am lucky?? sigh.. I will start my 9 to 5 life soon.

WHOOO!! 12 people have viewed me. Ok lah 11, excluding myself..
Creating a blog sometimes is really contradictory because the things I wrote inside are very private and really from my true heart, but when I see somebody is viewing my blog I feel a sense of contentment and excitement. Now only I know why so many people like to write blog. If you don't mind please leave your name here :)

I want to be LIBRA

There is a new horoscope sign discovered, Ophiucus. Cool!!

Aries - Apr 19 - May 14
Taurus - May 15 - June 21
Gemini - June 22 - July 20
Cancer - Jul 21 - August 10
Leo - August 11 - September 16
Virgo - September 17 - October 31
Libra - November 1 - Nov 23
Scorpio - Nov 24 - Nov 29
Ophiucus - Nov 30 - Dec 18
Sagittarius - Dec 91 - Jan 19
Capricorn - Jan 2 - Feb 16
Aquarius - Feb 17 - Mar 12
Pisces - Mar 13 - Apr 18

But according to this I will be assigned to Virgo, arghhhh I want to be Libra. Why they never ask my permission before shifting me from Libra to Virgo?! I don't want to be Virgo lah!! lolx.. Stupid Ophiucus came and interrupted..

My computer!!

ancient computer is spoilt, RM 2750 gone.

holiday updates

HAHAHA and YEAH!!! Finally I got my broadband...But it cost me RM 467..Can't imagine the technology now is so advanced that i can go online everywhere in m'sia with only a moving USB modem,wow!!

Holiday is not a bad thing because I can meet all my sec and high school friends again. I hope more gatherings of this kind in future because I like the atmosphere, is very comfortable and harmony..Please don't make it an annual event!!!

long long vacation

3 months holidays has begun, everythings are good except I can't go online at home!!!! argh!! I will get an internet connection at home soon really, it's so troublesome to go to cyber cafe just to check all the rubbish e-mails in my nus inbox. I have been slacking for the past 4 days, sleep 12 hours a day. My mum has been nagging me since the first day of my holidays.."weichong!! when are you going to find yourself a job? Are you really gonna to slack the whole 3 months?!" These few words appear everydays and I am used to them. I think I will get a job sooner or later because I started to find staying at home is really boring sometimes. Time is really very hard to be spent when you have nothing to do, working maybe can spend my free time more meaningful with some pocket money for next semester.

虽然真的很舍不得，很不甘心，但是还是到了说再见的时候。不知道下次见面是什么时候，也许根本不会有这个机会见面。这个事件绝对会是我的遗憾，难道我就这么的讨人厌吗？？

end of 1st year in nus..

Finally, my 1st year in nus comes to an end..exams have just finished, and I do not care about the results but i know it sucks..just leave it to the day when the results are announced, now i would just enjoy my last week here before going back to home and stay there for the next 3 months vacation...
Backtracking what I have done this whole year, it is quite amazing that time passes so fast..I did something that cost me to lose a friend, a stupid action really..I knew a group of badminton team players who are my dinner and lunch buddies since the beginning of second semester..suffering a lot in cs1101c but finally was over..knew a group of volleyballers where we did a lot of stupid things like dancing(haha, nobody nobody but you) and tears when we lost in semi during IHG..the gang of dota(one round!!!) and many many people in RH. I am really happy that I can meet you all here and good bye for those who are not staying next year..I am really looking forward for next year, see you next year RH!!

gd bye cs1101c!!

Today marks a very important date of my life. CS 1101C was over!!!! This scary module which influenced and tortured my mood this whole semester finally came to its end. I swear I would never take up any programming modules under unforced condition, I SWEAR!!!! Although I know I am not able to get a good grade I would just pray for a maximum. Hope I wont get too lousy, I can accept a not so good grade. Please pray for me..

Last thing，Programming------->恶心！！！！！

OK, 6 papers within one week..this really driving crazy..30 of April please come faster!!!

New look !!

I changed my hair-style, I think this one is nice as in more stylo instead of barely let the hair grows long. These are the photos I took just after I finished cutting and dyeing my hair. Although the new colour has insignificant differences from my previous one but it serves my purpose of just covering up all the freaking white hair on my head. Thx for my cousin for helping me to cut and dye mt hair again. =)

front view

side view

This is the 'bah chuo mee' of bedok block 85. Due to the recommendation from friends, I finally have a chance to try it. Although it looks not very nice and class but its taste is really above normal level. I wouldn't say it is super tasty but it is worth to taste it. The portion is super small.. cant fill my stomach, hungry....

FAME, LAME or SHAME

I must record down this very clumsy but memorable moment in my life where I first danced officially in front of so many people. Here is the video of that night when we performed on the stage. Audience was screaming like hell, most probably was because our funny but sexy movements...




The song we are performing is 'NOBODY' from WONDER GIRLs....

This is just before the performance where I filled my stomach before the performance.

This is just after the performance, some classic actions in our performance...lolx.

With all of our efforts, we won this competition. SD 100 was awarded, thx for this SD 100, we can have a hopefully good mm treat...hhee..

My existence

I have been wondering what if I didn't come to NUS but continue to study at UKM? All the people I have met in NUS would never appear in my life, I will stick around with all my friends in UKM? There is no existence of WONG WEI CHONG in NUS and RH, how will the things change?? How would my life in UKM then? Is my existence important?

wednesday again!! nightmare..

it is Wednesday again..sigh..will my tomorrow be happy or sad? all depend on how well I will do in my sit-in lab tomorrow.

I really don't want to screw my lab again, my result is damn lousy already..argh""" stressed !!! I can't sleep tonight already...

得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。当有一天，你深入了解后，你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。

当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。

时间总会过去的，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！

did she know I went to her performace and supported her at a corner?

Last weekend I went back home finally..Other than ate a lot at home and most importantly was mother-made dishes, I spent quite a lot of money on buying new short pants, T-shirts and a pair of shoes. Dunno why I can't control myself from eating and buying once crossing over from s'pore to m'sia..maybe the currency is lower in m'sia. I had never felt that before I came in s'pore..There is a trend of those T-shirts I have bought recently, I keep buying T-shirts with ape printed on. Ya lah is babymilo, dunno since when I am addicted to ape already..lol

No mood !! programming fuck !!

Today my mood is totally gone..cs 1101c sit in lab really can decide my mood on that particular day..I really don't know how to deal with the two remaining sit in labs..is it because I am stupid? or because I am careless, didn't read the question carefully?
Although I find various of ways to make myself forget about it, I just can't..The awkward feeling keep loitering in my mind..I am sure I don't have talent in programming and I will never take this kind of alien module again in future..How I hope this semester will end faster and then I can say bye bye to cs 1101c..

I might fail this module, really..Please don't happen..

A relaxing weekend

You will never believe this is the first time I go out to shop in Singapore (I mean proper shopping) after I started study here. It was IT Show that attracted me to Suntec City this weekend. The situation there was cramped, and I was forced to take small steps to move around the crowds. Below are the evidents, I didn't lie, really..

I really didn't have the mood to splurge in this crowded situation and in the end I only bought back a headset worth $ 20 after 3 hours there..lolx..

Ya, is my shoutout again:

Arshavin cool..Arsenal the best!!!

No Time at all!!!

Although all the mid terms are over, but the amount of tutorial and assignment I need to finish is really a lot. They were thrown aside by me during mid terms period, and now is the time to finish them one by one. There is no a single second I can relax, am I pushing myself too much? But I really feel sinful if I ignore all these tutorials and wait for the solutions in class..sigh..

It had been 1 month I think before I actually went out to play sport. Feeling so good to sweat out when I played tennis yesterday..but I have to admit that I am old already because I was forced to stop playing due to my stamina..

something delighting, ARSENAL was qualified in uefa..although it was determined by a penalty shootout, but after all ARSENAL was in..so excited..

where is my ONE?

This is the season of love.. Friends around me got their love one one by one..and me? still feel very sad although it has been 1 month plus already..when is my turn? why to me it is like so hard??

mid term is over !!!

Allow me to scream for my joy a while..WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..
mid term is OVER!!!!!!

DONE.

Careless!!!!

!@#$%^&*()_+... ICUCIC U

What the hell was I doing in the test ? Why didn't I look at the question properly? Why did I make such a stupid careless mistake.. I feel like killing myself now...

arHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mid term -- mid term -- mid term!!!

Thanks god. I managed to finish my maths paper on time. Although I got 1 answer wrong but that was all 天意..because I saw the solution of this question juz before I went to examination hall. I totally ignored it because the solution was so complicated that I thought it it would never come out in the test..but it did..Nobody to blame other than myself..

2 more tests in 2 days..How I hope this week will end faster..

I don't like programming!!!

CS 1101c really driving me crazy..the lab questions are like impossible to do one lah..I think I am going to screwed up this module..

Maths mid term later, I really hope that I can finish in time..although I have never succeeded doing this when I modeled the real exammination situation in my room... lol..

Anyway, all of these are compensated by a thing that happened yesterday..I was quite surprised and happy because she finally talked to me although it was in msn, but in the end I didn't chat to her for long. I felt like we are strangers..aih..

Fighting pimples

OH MY 天！！！！

My face is rotting...Pimples everywhere..

Solution:

1. sleep early everyday
2. drink more water(not soda water)
3. decrease the study pressure(which is imposible in NUS)
4. wash my face more frequently with OLAY whitening cleanser

None of the solutions above is done by me..die, my smooth face will never return..

3 more mid-term tests plus 1 programing lab this week...busy week!!!!

extra shoutout: Lousy MANU, you got the carling cup just by luck, don't be arrogant..ARSENAL still the strongest!!!!!!

Life is getting boring

Colour of my life faded, from the first day I entered NUS until now. Dunno why recently I find super boring staying in hall, feeling like going back to home if I am able to. How?! I need to be here for the rest of my 3 years in NUS. Is my Uni life to be nothing memorable to me in the future? I really need to go out and meet more people instead of hiding in a small room..
3 more mid-term tests to go, jiayou..

I am a loser..

It was around 1 month ago, when I finally picked up my courage and told her I like her..It is not easy I would fall in love with a girl, but dunno why god doesn't fulfil me every time.. Ya, I failed. I really don't wish to start my first posting with this sad story, but I just feel like want to express the awkward feeling that surrounding me every second.
I knew her in RH. At first I really didn't notice her before she started to appear frequently in front of my room windows. The feeling towards her grew inside my heart without my knowledge. Slowly, I would feel lost when I couldn't see her. Trying to look at the corridor, hoping that she would walk pass, listening to the chair dragging sound produced from upstairs showing that she was in hall, keep checking msn list to see whether she had back to hall or home that allowed her to online, hoping that she would suddenly appear in front of my windows again and give me a shock when I was frustrated in mugging.
I told her through sms, "What I wanted to tell just now was I think I like you. I know you are busy with dance, I just want to let you know." She replied a quite long sms mainly to reject me but what stroke straight to my heart was "I don't know whether you know or not, I am dating with a guy now, and WE ARE VERY HAPPY." I felt I was out, I stood no chance. Although I got some rumours that she sms quite often with a guy, I still tried to tell her my feeling. Hoping that I still had chance. I was wrong. I was nothing to her.
Celebrating my birthday when I was down, notified me whenever she wanted to go home, shared her life stories with me etc.. All of these were only the ways she treated a friend, NORMAL friend. I really don't know why she can give me such a big impact although we only know each other less than a year. Maybe the ways she talk and act being straight forward attracted me.
Really feel a bit regretful to tell her, if not we will still be friend with each other until now. Looking at another side, it is good to tell her also because at least I know I stand no chance. We haven't talked to each other since this incident happened, I doubt she will take the action to talk to me, and I really feel paiseh to talk to her again..I think it would be like this forever until one of us move out from RH. It is really hard to go in the world of a dancer.. We are too far away..I know..Looking her performing on stage, I know we are two parallel lines. Hope she can do well in her dance and study...
the song that suits me the best now..(黄靖伦-缺席）
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bTrMFUpeBrg
我想和你在一起，却在你未来缺席....

song that makes me thinks of her every time I listen to it..(michael jackson-black or white)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZI9OYMRwN1Q