Long long chapter

The more you grow elder, the more you feel lost in your life. There seems to be no 'next chapter' of your life anymore ever since graduation. 'Work life chapter' is so long that it makes up a big chunk of your life's storybook and you cannot see when is the time the storybook would be flipped to the next chapter. Pathetically, you are not the main leading character in this chapter but MONEY.

So, I am pondering
How to make life easier with less worry on money spent?
How to reduce the constrain of the amount of money on the things I wanna achieve in my life?

2 Years between me and you

2 years of happiness, 2 years of mutual understanding and 2 years of multiple quarrels (with tears). I am grateful that I still have her on my side. Started from our trip to Hong Kong, coincidence and fate made us together and fell in love. I appreciate and thank the arrangement of god to have our '红线' tied together.

2 years of time. Maybe this is a short timeframe compared to our life, but to have a person with you caring for you the whole 2 years is just unimaginably good. I hope we will have more years down the road together and to turn the rings on our middle finger to the ring finger very soon.

Happy 2 years to our relationship, Mrs Wong. Let's work hard together for our future.

*Bear with this unromantic but 'practical' boyfriend you have.  Hope that when you realise this post, you will read it it with a smile and melted from your heart :-)

四个月后，你终于来了！！

四个月的等待，你终于来了！真没想到你会以这样的方式到来。还好当时我有花一点时间问一问，要不然也不会知道有这样的一个机会。

sales engineer， 而且还是一个中国公司。一直到上个星期我都不会想到我的第一份工作会是这个样子的。interview 了这么多次其他的工作，没想到这次只是去谈一谈就很幸运的得到了这个机会。四个月里，低潮然后又振作接着又低潮。。过得真不是味道。钱方面的压力，亲戚朋友的压力都让我一度对我的前途感到绝望。我开始怀疑我自己的能力，对自己也失去了信心。

就在我答应要接受这个offer 之前，我还是犹豫了很久。原因就是因为对于sales这方面，我没有太大的自信。一个连在学校presentation都紧张的半死的人，以后要以presentation 混饭吃，我能吗？但收集大家的意见后，我想通了。凡是不做就不会知道。我决定放手一搏，反正我还年轻。说不定我会学到我终生受用的人际与沟通技巧。

未来的事我不能预测，我只想准备好自己为即将而来的挑战而奋斗。加油！我相信我的选择是正确的！谢谢四个月来给我鼓励的老婆还有爸妈。谢谢你们的谅解。。

This is my first post after the hacker invasion into my blog. Life has not changed since my last post. Still unemployed. Worries and emotions come in everyday even I told myself there are jobs out there just that I am not lucky enough to meet them. I am desperately trying out any jobs as long as they require no prior experience. I started to take every interview chance very seriously because I do not know the next waiting period is how long before I pick up a call for interview again. I hope the coming one will bring me a good news and drag me out of my lazy and aimless life.

Change a mind for unemployment

After about 2 months from graduation, I still cannot find a job (those I like and pay me a reasonable salary). All the emotion kicks in. I was thinking why other people can find their job so easily while I was so hard? No call for interview for the past 2 weeks already. Anything wrong with the way I apply?

Maybe I should really appreciate what my mother said recently. "Why so hurry in finding a job? You will spend the rest of your life working (like 40years after this). Must slowly find one that fits you well and you will be happy to work with. Some even find for half a year after their graduation."

My parents' understanding really removed one source of stress from me for still not getting a job yet. I should have a '平常心' in dealing with this. Maybe this will allow the good news to come in soon.

Still not yet employed

Unemployment is actually worse than not being able to score during exams. 毕业就等于失业, now I can fully understand this.

Problems arises when our life is not engaged. Referring to my post below, I hope I can get a job and settle down in Singapore very soon. This is not solely for the money, but to also release me from the difficulty I am facing now.

post-graduation symptoms

I have graduated, but I am not happy. Worried of being unemployed. Worried of staying at home for too long and lose contact to Singapore. Worried of the emptiness of my life now. What is my next step after I have rested for a long time and find no reason to be unemployed anymore? I face this problem earlier probably because I did not get to enjoy my graduation trip like my other coursemates do.

I feel lost especially when you said it in front of me just now. I dunno how to answer you but I think you also don't understand my situation. Finding a job soon may solve all these, the emptiness I have everytime during the school holiday, just that this time its end is still not marked.

It is the saddest when you are misunderstood from your family member. Although this is not the first time I quarrel with my mum, but being unfilial in her mind really bothered me a lot. At the deepest of my heart, I have never thought that. I dun even know why she will think of me like this, but this certainly made me want to be more independent. I wish I can start working now and spend my own money.

P.H.D or not?

Recently, I was surprised by my FYP prof who offered me to continue phd study. I was shocked + a bit 'am chio' at first actually because I thought aren't only those 'smart' people will be offered to study phd? Am I considered be a smart student already in NUS? Haha. But looking at my result, I don't think so. I am just about the average.

This question has been bothering me for quite some time. Should I take up this offer and start another miserable 4years life (at least!!) in NUS again? Continue PHD means I will have a constant pay throughout my PHD study. I will gain research skill (of course the PHD degree in the end) but will lack in communication skill. Conversely, I may get higher pay if I start to work after my graduation. If I spend this 4 years in one company, my pay would definitely be higher than what the PHD scholarship can pay me. I can even get the working experience sooner. Afterall, PHD students still have to come out to work. If I start to work earlier, I will have advantage on this.

After thinking so long, the final decision will still depend on my interest. When you have interest on something, the momentum will be strong and it will help you to overcome everything that obstructs your path. Don't ever force yourselves to do something that doesn't interest you at all. Your heart will be signalling you and you should listen to it. Now, I think I know where my interest lies with, I think in my heart I have already had a decision.

快乐， 是当你寂寞需要陪伴时，对的人；期待的人在你身旁出现，陪着你。

This year birthday is DIFFERENT

Another first time and it happened on my birthday.

This is my first time spending my birthday with my laopo! sweet and heart-warming.

Thanks for doing all the things specially for me. I love you laopo!

wisdom tooth gone, no more toothpick!

Well, finally I removed my wisdom tooth which had been troubling me for the past 10 years. First time visiting dentist and it is wisdom tooth extraction. It really dun make me feel good to visit dentist anymore.

drill and drill and my tooth was broken into pieces before it got removed

From today onwards, i would not need to bring toothpick everywhere I go. No more meat got stuck in between my teeth!

When all the bad things happened together, I can't take it. Please spare me.

I am a blissful guy.

I am contented with what I have now.

Thanks for giving me all these, I am grateful.

当被人误解，而却无法让对方了解我。
精心的计划，却为未来埋下了炸弹。

蚂蚁和大象

当我埋怨我的工作有多辛苦时，不管是现在还是以后，我都应该想想我爸爸是如何忍着比我多100倍的辛苦把我养大。20多年，没有怨言。。

All my First-es in Hong Kong

1. I had my first flying experience.
2. I saw Eason within a reachable distance.
3. I first experienced what is a winter. Although it did not snow, it was cold enough for me to shiver.
4. I celebrated CNY away from home for the first time.
5. I did piercing
   
6. I went to Ocean Park.
7. I first stepped onto China.
8. I visited Macau.
9. I found my first love.
10. I ate in a michelin star restaurant.
11. I watched the longest fireworks I have ever seen in my life(30 minutes).
12. I was at the place where 香港金像奖 is held.
13. I saw what is exactly the 包山 and I ate the 平安包.
14. I saw the biggest budhha statue in the world.
15. I visited the place where 周润发 was born.
16. I was amazed by the world well known night scenery from different angles.
17. I went to hike.
18. I had my first Hong Kong friend added in my facebook.
19. I went to 签唱会 and I met 林峰 and 罗志祥.
20. I visited Korea.
21. I studied for my final exam on an airplane.
22. I made my first Kimchi.
23. I had my first blazer.
24. I studied in an Asian number 1 university.
25. I missed someone and wanted to meet her so eagerly.
26. I brought my family to travel outside of Malaysia (if Singapore is not counted).
27. I visited the land of dreams, Disneyland.
28. I feel so reluctant to leave a place.

Goodbye Hong Kong and thank you for all the memories you left for me.

the hong kong without her company

something wrong with it. I am so empty without her around. I am so used to it already. Walking around the windows of the world, I was finding the traces she left there. It would be better if I went with her last time. At least, I may have more fun.

6 more days to go in HK. Why suddenly HK is so boring for me. I have an urge to fly back now to rest.

Bye Hong Kong, hope to see you again.

I am here, at the point where I have to start thinking am I really gonna leave Hong Kong very soon and end my SEP journey.

4 months. Ya it is fast. I am now 10 days away from my departure from Hong Kong. I am thinking what are the reasons making me so bu she de to leave HK. First is the food here. Second is its shopping culture. Third and I think is the most significant one is the freedom and easy time I have here. Life is so wonderful if it continues as the way I live now in HK. No stress with playing as the priority. But I know I am too greedy to ask for more. I should leave all the things happened here as my memories to share with my family and friends.

30th January 2011 is just like yesterday where I started my wonderful SEP in HK. I can't believe what I am so used to be doing in HK now will soon to be so far away from me. I love you HK, and all my good memories here, 30th January 2011 - 9th June 2011.

GuangZhou 3D2N

The very first, official travel out of Hong Kong since I got here. Guang Zhou! I am coming. Totolly holiday mood now!