Heng ah !!

10 minutes after receiving my result. Quite okay, not as bad as I thought. Those difficult modules I managed to die not so pathetically. Some surprises also. Overall I am satisfied with a minor improvement in my CAP. However, I will still question myself what 'IF' this module I did better, my cap would have increased by a lot! My character will always does this kind of thing. Our life has many IFs, my task is to reduce the chance I ask myself IF.

Compete with myself not others in University.

counting down

3 more days to start working and end my boring and meaningless holiday lifestyle.
2 more days to get back my result. I started to feel jittery already.

Lost my prepaid card

I lost my starhub prepaid card. It means I will lose contact with a lot of people. This might be good for me to forget thoroughly all the unhappiness.

为什么上网？

其实写blog 不过是让你想让他知道的人看到你的心情，
但矛盾的是有些太私密的事情你却又不想让大家都知道。
多希望有些posts 能只让某些人看， 这样就省去这些麻烦。
我相信不会有太多人想知道我的心情吧？
哈哈

现在的人没什么安全感，
网上的这些blog， facebook etc. 正好是让大家觉得自己更有存在感的工具。
希望你在乎的人知道你的感受和境况。
至少我就是这样。

闷疯了

全世界的人好像都很忙， 都有自己的事要做。而我，好像也只有我每天无所事事， 在家闲着。 没事做的感觉真不好。睡也不是，上网也不是，看戏也不是。每天睁开眼都不懂自己要做什么。三个月好长啊！我该怎么做？就这样浪费时间吗？我想找些事做啊！工作也好，出门逛街旅游也好。天啊！！

My true feeling at 12.14am 11 May 2010

Suddenly I think of her, the one that I believe I have fallen in love with but failed to become even a 'friend'. If I have no special feeling in you I wouldn't have been so desperately asking for your contact and adding you in my facebook and MSN. I hate starting a friendship through social network like Facebook or MSN because it will normally fail in the end at least for me.

It has been a year since I saw her during lecture. Slowly through MSN we chatted. However the weird part is we can't chat when we were face to face. Somehow when I tried to ask her out to try to talk and interact with her, there would have some obstacles preventing me. I dunno why, or should I have known?? I can't get what you are thinking. Maybe right from the beginning it was me who over-expected what can happen between us. I was just beside jack when you were telling those stuff pertaining me. I chose not to believe what you told him because I still hope that we can have chance. But now, it seems that you do not have that kind of feeling which I have.

Hoping you to appear in my online friend list everyday is tiring. I should stop. Three months are enough for me to forget a person. At least that kind of 'special feeling' towards you. Again, this is a repetition after last experience, I hope that this would be the last time I get melancholy because of you.

Marina Bay Sands

Pictures taken at Marina Bay and I lost $15 in Marina Bay Sands casino :(

Free but bored

This is only the fourth day of my long 3 months holiday and I started to feel bored already. Although during the school time my time was packed with study, at least I felt that I was doing something meaningful. But now, I am like wasting my life. Actually during this time I should be in Taiwan enjoying my holiday. Due to improper planning, I was unable to go. Next time I should plan early to fully utilize my free time that I am craving and looking forward while mugging for exams.

完了，也完了

I have finished all my exams 2 hours before but happiness can't be generated truly from my body.
This semester is really terrible. I don't dare to think of my result. Suan le, let my result be what it wants to be. Anyway, the release of result would be 2 months later, by that time I would have forgot my feeling now already. By the time I view my result, it would simply be A,B,C,D for me. No other meanings.

I am now craving for some activities or persons to enlighten me. So bored and lost.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The End of Semester 4~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~