This is my first post after the hacker invasion into my blog. Life has not changed since my last post. Still unemployed. Worries and emotions come in everyday even I told myself there are jobs out there just that I am not lucky enough to meet them. I am desperately trying out any jobs as long as they require no prior experience. I started to take every interview chance very seriously because I do not know the next waiting period is how long before I pick up a call for interview again. I hope the coming one will bring me a good news and drag me out of my lazy and aimless life.

Change a mind for unemployment

After about 2 months from graduation, I still cannot find a job (those I like and pay me a reasonable salary). All the emotion kicks in. I was thinking why other people can find their job so easily while I was so hard? No call for interview for the past 2 weeks already. Anything wrong with the way I apply?

Maybe I should really appreciate what my mother said recently. "Why so hurry in finding a job? You will spend the rest of your life working (like 40years after this). Must slowly find one that fits you well and you will be happy to work with. Some even find for half a year after their graduation."

My parents' understanding really removed one source of stress from me for still not getting a job yet. I should have a '平常心' in dealing with this. Maybe this will allow the good news to come in soon.

Still not yet employed

Unemployment is actually worse than not being able to score during exams. 毕业就等于失业, now I can fully understand this.

Problems arises when our life is not engaged. Referring to my post below, I hope I can get a job and settle down in Singapore very soon. This is not solely for the money, but to also release me from the difficulty I am facing now.

post-graduation symptoms

I have graduated, but I am not happy. Worried of being unemployed. Worried of staying at home for too long and lose contact to Singapore. Worried of the emptiness of my life now. What is my next step after I have rested for a long time and find no reason to be unemployed anymore? I face this problem earlier probably because I did not get to enjoy my graduation trip like my other coursemates do.

I feel lost especially when you said it in front of me just now. I dunno how to answer you but I think you also don't understand my situation. Finding a job soon may solve all these, the emptiness I have everytime during the school holiday, just that this time its end is still not marked.

It is the saddest when you are misunderstood from your family member. Although this is not the first time I quarrel with my mum, but being unfilial in her mind really bothered me a lot. At the deepest of my heart, I have never thought that. I dun even know why she will think of me like this, but this certainly made me want to be more independent. I wish I can start working now and spend my own money.

P.H.D or not?

Recently, I was surprised by my FYP prof who offered me to continue phd study. I was shocked + a bit 'am chio' at first actually because I thought aren't only those 'smart' people will be offered to study phd? Am I considered be a smart student already in NUS? Haha. But looking at my result, I don't think so. I am just about the average.

This question has been bothering me for quite some time. Should I take up this offer and start another miserable 4years life (at least!!) in NUS again? Continue PHD means I will have a constant pay throughout my PHD study. I will gain research skill (of course the PHD degree in the end) but will lack in communication skill. Conversely, I may get higher pay if I start to work after my graduation. If I spend this 4 years in one company, my pay would definitely be higher than what the PHD scholarship can pay me. I can even get the working experience sooner. Afterall, PHD students still have to come out to work. If I start to work earlier, I will have advantage on this.

After thinking so long, the final decision will still depend on my interest. When you have interest on something, the momentum will be strong and it will help you to overcome everything that obstructs your path. Don't ever force yourselves to do something that doesn't interest you at all. Your heart will be signalling you and you should listen to it. Now, I think I know where my interest lies with, I think in my heart I have already had a decision.

快乐， 是当你寂寞需要陪伴时，对的人；期待的人在你身旁出现，陪着你。

This year birthday is DIFFERENT

Another first time and it happened on my birthday.

This is my first time spending my birthday with my laopo! sweet and heart-warming.

Thanks for doing all the things specially for me. I love you laopo!

wisdom tooth gone, no more toothpick!

Well, finally I removed my wisdom tooth which had been troubling me for the past 10 years. First time visiting dentist and it is wisdom tooth extraction. It really dun make me feel good to visit dentist anymore.

drill and drill and my tooth was broken into pieces before it got removed

From today onwards, i would not need to bring toothpick everywhere I go. No more meat got stuck in between my teeth!

When all the bad things happened together, I can't take it. Please spare me.