闷疯了

全世界的人好像都很忙， 都有自己的事要做。而我，好像也只有我每天无所事事， 在家闲着。 没事做的感觉真不好。睡也不是，上网也不是，看戏也不是。每天睁开眼都不懂自己要做什么。三个月好长啊！我该怎么做？就这样浪费时间吗？我想找些事做啊！工作也好，出门逛街旅游也好。天啊！！

My true feeling at 12.14am 11 May 2010

Suddenly I think of her, the one that I believe I have fallen in love with but failed to become even a 'friend'. If I have no special feeling in you I wouldn't have been so desperately asking for your contact and adding you in my facebook and MSN. I hate starting a friendship through social network like Facebook or MSN because it will normally fail in the end at least for me.

It has been a year since I saw her during lecture. Slowly through MSN we chatted. However the weird part is we can't chat when we were face to face. Somehow when I tried to ask her out to try to talk and interact with her, there would have some obstacles preventing me. I dunno why, or should I have known?? I can't get what you are thinking. Maybe right from the beginning it was me who over-expected what can happen between us. I was just beside jack when you were telling those stuff pertaining me. I chose not to believe what you told him because I still hope that we can have chance. But now, it seems that you do not have that kind of feeling which I have.

Hoping you to appear in my online friend list everyday is tiring. I should stop. Three months are enough for me to forget a person. At least that kind of 'special feeling' towards you. Again, this is a repetition after last experience, I hope that this would be the last time I get melancholy because of you.

Marina Bay Sands

Pictures taken at Marina Bay and I lost $15 in Marina Bay Sands casino :(

Free but bored

This is only the fourth day of my long 3 months holiday and I started to feel bored already. Although during the school time my time was packed with study, at least I felt that I was doing something meaningful. But now, I am like wasting my life. Actually during this time I should be in Taiwan enjoying my holiday. Due to improper planning, I was unable to go. Next time I should plan early to fully utilize my free time that I am craving and looking forward while mugging for exams.

完了，也完了

I have finished all my exams 2 hours before but happiness can't be generated truly from my body.
This semester is really terrible. I don't dare to think of my result. Suan le, let my result be what it wants to be. Anyway, the release of result would be 2 months later, by that time I would have forgot my feeling now already. By the time I view my result, it would simply be A,B,C,D for me. No other meanings.

I am now craving for some activities or persons to enlighten me. So bored and lost.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The End of Semester 4~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Is an exam period

This is written when I am tired of mugging. It is true that I have finished reading all the materials needed for exam but somehow I feel there must be something that I have missed out which might come out in exam. Sometimes I really want to say 'I don't care!'. Exam? what a big deal, I rather watch TV. But somehow after slacking for a while I will feel bad and start to pick up the books and read again. Haha.. This is so contradicting. Maybe this shows that I am still not 无药可救.

I always feel that what I know is not enough for a good result in NUS. Keep revising the lecture note and tutorials again and again, but how much have been really absorbed into my brain? I dunno. The results for this semester can prove everything.

I have a bad feeling that my results for this semester will deteriorate. Please!! I don't want my cap drops..I am tired of the university life already. I hope I can get free, the fastest the best. Looking forward for holiday although nothing has been planned.

ITCHY

I am writing this post with my hand scratching my body. I didn't know I am allergic to alcohol ?! Now the rashes grow all over my body, F*** damn itchy. One can of Carlsberg turned me into this pathetic situation now, arghhhh.....

Messages that get not reply

This is another disappointment. Maybe is because of April fool? I dunno. I feel cheated. Maybe it is a repeat of last experience. It just can't follow what I imagine, I dunno why. I have lost my patience, I will give up. Maybe I am really not your type. But I still hope for a reply from you, at least a 'NO', is it that hard?

The so called Uni life

Sometimes I am wondering why those my friends studying at other Unis other than in S'pore one can have their Uni life so exciting and fun. I am now feeling that my Uni life sucks. Isn't as attractive as what I thought when I was in secondary. I don't have time to breathe. The things smashing on me continuously, non-stop. Assignments, lab reports, presentations, tests.... So this is what tertiary education looks like? I feel that I learn nothing from every single module I have taken. The knowledge does not last. Is it true that entering Uni is just for a paper in the end?

I need some free time for myself, not sitting alone in my room to mug, non-stop... please!!!

IHG '.'

IHG for my part came to an end. The game I was more concerned was volleyball. Though we lost, but at least we got into semi-finals. Good job guys, I enjoyed playing with you all.
Good bye for those 'lao ren' but those who still can play for next IHG, hope to see you all next year. We train again together, break the semis curse, go finals!!