Long long chapter

The more you grow elder, the more you feel lost in your life. There seems to be no 'next chapter' of your life anymore ever since graduation. 'Work life chapter' is so long that it makes up a big chunk of your life's storybook and you cannot see when is the time the storybook would be flipped to the next chapter. Pathetically, you are not the main leading character in this chapter but MONEY.

So, I am pondering
How to make life easier with less worry on money spent?
How to reduce the constrain of the amount of money on the things I wanna achieve in my life?

2 Years between me and you

2 years of happiness, 2 years of mutual understanding and 2 years of multiple quarrels (with tears). I am grateful that I still have her on my side. Started from our trip to Hong Kong, coincidence and fate made us together and fell in love. I appreciate and thank the arrangement of god to have our '红线' tied together.

2 years of time. Maybe this is a short timeframe compared to our life, but to have a person with you caring for you the whole 2 years is just unimaginably good. I hope we will have more years down the road together and to turn the rings on our middle finger to the ring finger very soon.

Happy 2 years to our relationship, Mrs Wong. Let's work hard together for our future.

*Bear with this unromantic but 'practical' boyfriend you have.  Hope that when you realise this post, you will read it it with a smile and melted from your heart :-)

四个月后，你终于来了！！

四个月的等待，你终于来了！真没想到你会以这样的方式到来。还好当时我有花一点时间问一问，要不然也不会知道有这样的一个机会。

sales engineer， 而且还是一个中国公司。一直到上个星期我都不会想到我的第一份工作会是这个样子的。interview 了这么多次其他的工作，没想到这次只是去谈一谈就很幸运的得到了这个机会。四个月里，低潮然后又振作接着又低潮。。过得真不是味道。钱方面的压力，亲戚朋友的压力都让我一度对我的前途感到绝望。我开始怀疑我自己的能力，对自己也失去了信心。

就在我答应要接受这个offer 之前，我还是犹豫了很久。原因就是因为对于sales这方面，我没有太大的自信。一个连在学校presentation都紧张的半死的人，以后要以presentation 混饭吃，我能吗？但收集大家的意见后，我想通了。凡是不做就不会知道。我决定放手一搏，反正我还年轻。说不定我会学到我终生受用的人际与沟通技巧。

未来的事我不能预测，我只想准备好自己为即将而来的挑战而奋斗。加油！我相信我的选择是正确的！谢谢四个月来给我鼓励的老婆还有爸妈。谢谢你们的谅解。。

This is my first post after the hacker invasion into my blog. Life has not changed since my last post. Still unemployed. Worries and emotions come in everyday even I told myself there are jobs out there just that I am not lucky enough to meet them. I am desperately trying out any jobs as long as they require no prior experience. I started to take every interview chance very seriously because I do not know the next waiting period is how long before I pick up a call for interview again. I hope the coming one will bring me a good news and drag me out of my lazy and aimless life.

Change a mind for unemployment

After about 2 months from graduation, I still cannot find a job (those I like and pay me a reasonable salary). All the emotion kicks in. I was thinking why other people can find their job so easily while I was so hard? No call for interview for the past 2 weeks already. Anything wrong with the way I apply?

Maybe I should really appreciate what my mother said recently. "Why so hurry in finding a job? You will spend the rest of your life working (like 40years after this). Must slowly find one that fits you well and you will be happy to work with. Some even find for half a year after their graduation."

My parents' understanding really removed one source of stress from me for still not getting a job yet. I should have a '平常心' in dealing with this. Maybe this will allow the good news to come in soon.

Still not yet employed

Unemployment is actually worse than not being able to score during exams. 毕业就等于失业, now I can fully understand this.

Problems arises when our life is not engaged. Referring to my post below, I hope I can get a job and settle down in Singapore very soon. This is not solely for the money, but to also release me from the difficulty I am facing now.

post-graduation symptoms

I have graduated, but I am not happy. Worried of being unemployed. Worried of staying at home for too long and lose contact to Singapore. Worried of the emptiness of my life now. What is my next step after I have rested for a long time and find no reason to be unemployed anymore? I face this problem earlier probably because I did not get to enjoy my graduation trip like my other coursemates do.

I feel lost especially when you said it in front of me just now. I dunno how to answer you but I think you also don't understand my situation. Finding a job soon may solve all these, the emptiness I have everytime during the school holiday, just that this time its end is still not marked.

It is the saddest when you are misunderstood from your family member. Although this is not the first time I quarrel with my mum, but being unfilial in her mind really bothered me a lot. At the deepest of my heart, I have never thought that. I dun even know why she will think of me like this, but this certainly made me want to be more independent. I wish I can start working now and spend my own money.

P.H.D or not?

Recently, I was surprised by my FYP prof who offered me to continue phd study. I was shocked + a bit 'am chio' at first actually because I thought aren't only those 'smart' people will be offered to study phd? Am I considered be a smart student already in NUS? Haha. But looking at my result, I don't think so. I am just about the average.

This question has been bothering me for quite some time. Should I take up this offer and start another miserable 4years life (at least!!) in NUS again? Continue PHD means I will have a constant pay throughout my PHD study. I will gain research skill (of course the PHD degree in the end) but will lack in communication skill. Conversely, I may get higher pay if I start to work after my graduation. If I spend this 4 years in one company, my pay would definitely be higher than what the PHD scholarship can pay me. I can even get the working experience sooner. Afterall, PHD students still have to come out to work. If I start to work earlier, I will have advantage on this.

After thinking so long, the final decision will still depend on my interest. When you have interest on something, the momentum will be strong and it will help you to overcome everything that obstructs your path. Don't ever force yourselves to do something that doesn't interest you at all. Your heart will be signalling you and you should listen to it. Now, I think I know where my interest lies with, I think in my heart I have already had a decision.

快乐， 是当你寂寞需要陪伴时，对的人；期待的人在你身旁出现，陪着你。